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by friday we were ok already, and by saturday back to our usual loving us. But something happened along the way home in the car tat made us unhappy again. Why is it that suddenly our relationship has become so vulnerable?
It really saddened me cos I felt that I was les important... Did he stop to think how I was feeling? I thought he'd be ok and we'd be ok after a while, since it was an accident and a small incident. But I was wrong...
Anyway despite that, we went to Tampines1 tgt ytd... It was still cold war all the way, till at the lunch we talked abit and when we shopped. So i tot everything's getting back fine...
i thought.
We haven't been chatting on the phone for the whole of last week...

we're ok. we're not. w're ok. or are we not?

蔡依林-妥协

你总爱编织谎言我负责配合表演所有改变只为了进入你的世界
这情节重复了一百遍才发现是你的心太野你划定楚河汉界
我不能轻易犯规所有时间都是先给了你优先权
不自觉爱到不敢冒险成了你的傀儡
一年两年才看见我有多狼狈
爱到妥协到头来还是无解
绑着你不让你飞 历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒我躲在我的世界
你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪我了解不会变不再徘徊
开始自己的明天

had a small tiff with him the day before yesterday...
I started it, I know... but was just unhappy abt it. wanted to just let it go but cos he asked, i spoke up. Then it turned worse... I tot the matter would just cool off the next day, just like it always did, but it didnt. I was already ok... I put the matter at the back of my mind already by yesterday. We were talking, but not so friendly response from him. I suppose he's still pissed, cos it showed in the tone of his texting.
perhaps it's just like Jay Chou's song ...

我知道你我都没有错只是忘了怎么退后.

i think i'm at the brink of going nuts. Pls, don't drive me nuts!
the complaints every now and then, and it is alomost evry week are just too much to take. i'm am damn sick of it. why cant't u all empathise with us more?
The load that we are given and all, afterall here it is so big with so many depts/sections...
pls come and view our office if u dun get the picture.
and we are accountable for every little mistake that we make... it will be blown up.
I hate this kinda environment.

I wish I could gt I job I really enjoy... but the jobs till now? Nope. It's not that easy sometimes u know. Saying is easy.... evryone wants a job they love, to look forard to working everyday, but not evryone gets it, or would be able to find.

I'm really drained. Take me away pls.

I passed my basic theory test! 2nd attempt thou =P